Before - 2007

Before - 2008

I am fool I am free 2008-03-05 7:39:03 AM

sunny rain
sweet pain
sway me away again and again
happy tears
sad smiles
too much to bear I care no more
mourn...
when the world turns on blue and grey
today...
how can I set myself free
with a beatened heart
never to love and accept
let me be a fool
being happy without a clue...
let me be alone
with the pace of my own
let me be emotionless...
to escape the intricacy endless
let me be simple
and search for the tranquil peaceful
with a bit of luck
to find the purity of soul I seek
am I such a fool I am
for only once in a life time
bracing the sunshine
headlong to the holy shrine
free... free...

Spark in the abyss 2007-12-24 10:35:06 AM

How........? How fantastic
unimaginable
superb and unpredictable ...
for there is a spark
brighter than the northern star
and no other ray in the universe dare not compare
yet, it is flickering like one single firefly
That's the spark scratched... when and only when two lone souls meet
finding....searching....and seeking
for the right word...
from the language of romance
to open the hearts of seething lava
appearing cold and blue
and for the right way...
hidden inside the intricacy of chance
leading to the sortie...
of the labyrinth of life
Let the spark lead you...
and the force be with you ...
bonne chance....
when you someday decide to climb the Ladder of love...
have war of betrayal and jealousy prepare...
but all fair and square..
feel the magic flowing in thy blood..
and never mind the broken heart
Life is what it is.... a maze after all... to explore
get out of the dark shadow of fear
close your eyes, pinch your nose, cover your ears..
only with the sparkling heart.. jump into the abyss and
let it be....................
.....
.....
whatsoever .....................
.....
.....
underneath...............................

Claiming the right to own clean air, water, and other natural resources that is considered to be "free".... 2007-12-12 2:38:45 AM

In the 19th century, buffalo were hunted close to extinction in 19th century. On the other hand, the number of cattle of American west increased greatly. The difference is that any hunters can hunt as many buffalo as they want since buffalos in the wild were considered free resource. However, cattles of American west were privately owned, to kill or not to kill a cattle is not affected by others who kill or not to kill their cattle. Yet it is a different story for buffalo, since if a hunter decides to hunt one less buffalo other hunters will be very well pleased to hunt the buffalo he did not hunt. When everybody owns the resources, there is a great tendency for misuse. Moving out of the animal kingdom, what about free air and water? Should they be free at all? Clean air and water are nolonger abundant, hance not free, therefore, the act of making them dirty should come with extra penalty. The government should increase the environmental impact taxation and allocate the extra revenue to those who are harmed most.

Lovely 2007-12-11 2:14:15 AM

Having fun wooing rhyming cow 2007-12-06 8:43:47 AM

Like staring at the suns of shadow.
Diving into a river of bottomless shallow.
Sinking by bit in slowmo sorrow.
Suffocating, like getting killed by a soft pillow.
Struggle....
Damn! that girl must be a WoW!
No matter what, stand up and do not fall.
Hmm...the smell is so foul and raw.
Fight.. against that silent claw..
for that WoW might turn to a cow.. LoL

Wonderland lost yet found 2007-12-06 7:58:21 AM

Tear, you no longer shine with spark.
Dear, you forget the old way to talk.
Fear, you have hopeful eyes blink.
Liar, you need to make the truth speak.
What kills the nature of mankind.
Red desire plus green greed.
Butchers' sneer with hypocrites' creed.
I am looking for a wonderland lost yet found...

Great speech 2007-06-15 10:43:29 PM

This is how I define great speech. Great speech is the speech for which the video you watch online at home will make you hold your urinary bladder for more than 10 minutes. Here is one of them, The Art of innovation

Spontaneous thought 2007-06-15 9:54:45 PM

Everything has reason and it is the cause that I am interested in.

Drosophila 2007-06-13 9:54:45 PM

Wild Type fruit flies...(drosophila)
Female on the left, and male on the right.

The worst multiple choice nightmare 2007-06-09 1:14:04 PM

Question #13. Please chose one of the followings that are NOT true.
A . bla bla bla...
B. bla bla bla....
C. bla bla bla......
D. bla bla bla.......
E. All statements above are True.
I chose E, any better suggestions?

Comments
Karie Sun - 10/06/2007 10:46:05 AM
i'd say C...
cuz 省略号 should be six dots...haha
Taylor YunFan Li - 11/06/2007 6:49:29 PM
省略号6个点咩？
Karie Sun - 18/06/2007 9:23:44 PM
不是咩？
不信你去查。。。
Taylor YunFan Li - 30/06/2007 4:55:56 PM
省略号，省略号，应该就俩个点.. 我要发明省略号就给俩点儿把那4个点儿也给省了
Taylor YunFan Li - 24/05/2014 8:32 AM
是选Not True， lol..

Deadly grief 2007-06-01 2:30:47 PM

to woo the shrew 2007-5-30 1:56:52 AM

Life 2007-5-22 1:56:52 AM

I am glad to know that you've adopted such an optimistic view of life. Life in biological sense, I learned in text book, we are nothing apart from those bacteria that are everywhere in the sense that we both utilize energy in our metabolism, respond to environment, reproduce etc…. imagine yourself as a single bacteria, I don’t think you know what’s happiness, what’s sadness and depression. You just try your best to stay alive. The scientist who discovered the laws of thermodynamic said at the end of our universe, everything will be in thermodynamic equilibrium, where everything is cold and could not become colder. There will be no life exist. So I don’t think a meaningful life means anything with respect to a scale this big. I think that’s why some people in china chose to become monks living in temples not to worry about a damn thing. They just live like those bacterias. (not in derogatory sense) I hope that there exists upper level of life stages more into spiritual sense. I hope each and everyone of us has a soul not dependent on religion. Within something beyond our physical dimension, I think only there meaningful life can make sense and only there we differ from those bacteria. I hope death is not an end but a beginning. Maybe such a place does not exist, maybe we just make too much a deal of ourselves, maybe we are just like those bacteria, and ironically, maybe those bacteria are wondering the meaning of life just as we are doing. Lol. When in Rome, do as the romans do. While you are human being, do as human beings do. Being born, watching porn, going to school, having no clue, growing up, falling in love, only to find things getting tough. And moreover, reproducing, getting old and ugly, and die. This is my boring bacteria version of life model. I think this will minimize the pain felt from sufferings due to whatever reason because you take it for granted but this also will diminish the degree of happiness when something delightful happens. I remember seeing a British zombie movie where those zombies attack human, and one women says ‘ how are you doing？ “ to a man, and he says “ surviving !” He seems do indifferent about all those ugly bloody things that are happening around. Hundreds of kids die each day around the globe, if not thousands. If there are higher dimensions beyond death where our souls go to, I started to worry about its capacity. Lol and sad. In this journey of life, there are all sorts of nasty things that pop up once in a while, hopefully not too frequent. And there are all sorts of nasty fellow travelers who wants to take advantage of you or use you. I remember a quote, “ the more I learn about human beings, the more I like dogs.” It's like small bacteria get engulfed or eaten by big bacteria. You can’t say big bacteria are bad because he is trying to survive too, a big fat bacteria has to do what a big fat bad bacteria has to do. So for me and you who are small benign venerable bacteria we have to watch out for our predators. I think sometimes we have to admit that bad things happen in a natural way, you can’t do anything about it. And you can’t always expect only good things happens because there are two polarities usually. Good and Bad, and we experience both. Someone says whenever men think god laughs, but will god laugh at this sentence? Not unless the man is adding one to one.

Product rule of probablity and fate of destiny 2007-05-13 3:14:41 PM

It was you who I ve met at the right time and at the right place..
based on the product rule of probablity..
It was this accident that has happened at the wrong time and at the wrong place...
based on the product rule of probablity..
Maybe the only scientific explaination of fate is the product rule of probablity.
だから....
I will cherish our encounter with my heart and face the unfortunate with courage.

33 killed at Virginia Tech US 2007-04-17 7:44:22 AM

A guy from South Korea shot 32 others and himself at Virginia Tech University in USA. You just never know when your life is going to end. I hope it does not happen in University of Toronto. I dare not to imagine when sitting in a university class room trying to figure out what the prof has just said, and the next minute some one puts a bullet in your head. That might clear things up a little bit. This makes me realize how futile it is complaining about how life treats you unfairly. If you are doing it now, please drop it. Compared to those who were shot dead, at least you still have a life, no matter how shitty it is. It makes me remember a line from a movie. I can't remember its name. The setting is War of Vietnam. One soldier said: " when I see other being shot near me, I felt glad. I was glad it wasn't me".

coffee... 2007-04-16 12:25:22 AM

Once I learnt that coffee is bad for my heart, I immediately stop drinking cheap coffees...

doing .... without.......2007-04-15 9:04:52 AM

seeing the world without fear....
feeling the moment without regret....
doing stupid things without conscious....
hiding in the sunlight without shadow....

space nonpersonal--2007-03-16 8:09:03 PM

So tiny and so non influential I felt I am in this world, why make such a fuss about myself. Doing so will gain me nothing but ignorance. I hate someone being so subjective. It is as if they see only themselves and forget about ubiquitously existing objective substances. Even the world on our planet earth seems tiny compared with the universe, let alone yourself.

Contradiction of life 2007-02-27 11:24:48 PM

Life is the contradiction between
fighting and gaining or not fighting and losing
and
fighting and losing or not fighting and gaining.
In other words, life is balance of what you make it to be and what you let it to be.
Desire or tranquility, chose one.
My inclination now is toward the latter.

痕迹 -- 2007-02-12 9:43:55 AM

我把头深深地埋在
你曾经种下的花丛
想从新好好的体验
那芬芳的花香和那
你还残留着的气息
所有的痕迹将化作
我对你深深的思念

雪迹 -- 2007-01-16 10:07:02 PM

雪飘下，无痕无迹。
思绪中，没有边际。
没想到活着的意义。
就是有这么多东西要记。
多希望自己脑袋上接着USB。
走去邮局有两封信要寄。
看见有个兄弟开着法拉第。
自己难免在一旁妒忌。
有大哥告诉我这个小弟。
任何事情不要着急。
何必自己给自己惹气。
春夏秋冬一年四季。
没有闲暇享受一点清寂。
还不就是为了那点功利。

今夜无眠 -- 2007年1月6日

跟着感觉走，不想睡觉的时候就千万不要睡觉，因为睡觉相当于浪费自己的生命。寸金难买光阴，睡觉无外乎把金条一根一根往外撇。你放心砸到人肯定不会喊疼。如果你想成为一个有毅力的人，那我告诉你，最好的锻炼方法就是强迫自己不睡觉。想知道钢铁是怎么炼成的么，想必主人公不为人知的事情就是锻炼自己不睡觉吧。今夜无眠，从我做起，从今夜做起。牺牲躯体的渴求，完成心灵的净化。朋友们，让我们不睡觉吧。看看我们谁的灯油比较多。我要用我那渺小微弱的火苗温暖你冰冷脆弱的心脏。直到灯息火灭，你将会享受不睡觉的乐趣。记得读过一篇趣轶，说一小孩走路摔跤卡到头，然后一生不用睡觉，给我羡慕到了一个不行。如果上帝给我这个机会，我会吧我那大脑变成装满了数据的250G硬盘。想想可以考多少份金山词霸啊。也不会为区区GRE如此运筹帷幄。今夜不眠，不是不想眠而是不能眠和眠不了，人生坎坷，平路几何！想想以后的分叉路口，和那些种种不知左右的艰难选择。今夜看来又会无眠。习惯成自然，自然成习惯。无眠到咖啡变成生活的支柱，无眠到嘲笑有眠的人们。不知道那位哲学家说过，人类一切活动都由性起。正所谓男人无眠为红颜，女人无眠。。想必也依此类推。如果人类是无性繁殖的动物，那么世界上会不会少了些失眠的人呢？上帝啊，都是你的错，为什么要男人和女人原本不是一个世界上的人生活在同一个世界上，既然你无力挽回，至少赐我无眠神功吧，要不在我脑壳上装个 USB 2.0 插口 that transfers all my dismay out to recycle bin.

Am I a man dreaming about a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming about a man? -- 2006年12月11日

“Am I a man dreaming about a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming about a man” 不知道从哪里听来这句话的，挺有意思的。说这句话的人搞不清楚自己是人还是一只蝴蝶。现实与虚幻的交锋，这让我想起了 matrix。一个人需要 matrix 提供各种“正常”生活，而现实却是黑暗的。自己做的梦是不是真的呢，自己的现实是不是假的呢。也许所有的东西都是虚幻吧。怎样定义虚幻呢，虚幻是什么的，我觉得虚幻因为神秘所以虚幻。虚幻让我想到了原子，一个原子有原子核，还有电子。电子在原子核周围运转，同时具有波和微粒的性质。有人做过试验证明出90%的原子都是空的。原子是物质的基本结构。既然原子的90%是空的，那么所有的物质也应该90%是空的。一个人的身体也好，整个宇宙也好，也应该有90%的空虚。虚幻也许就存在于那90%的空虚。怎样定义这 ‘nothingness’ 呢？让你的梦告诉你吧。也许你就是那只蝴蝶。

西施豆腐 -- 2006年12月8日

昨天去超市，那个超市是国人开的。无意中在奶制品，鸡蛋旁边的冰柜里，看到这种豆腐，所谓的西施牌豆腐。呵呵，没想到广告也可以做的如此入题。买一块回家尝尝。

庸人的政治笑话 -- 2006年12月3日

有些人没有吃完饭洗碗的习惯。每顿饭吃饭前没有一个干净碗。所以这才想到洗碗。吃饭前现洗碗的人不谈政治，也谈不了政治，因为他们只爱看政治的笑话。我就是一个这样的庸人。什么北韩的 nuke，阿富汗的 roadside bomb, 中国的 currption, 这些不是像我这样的庸人所能控制得了的。自古以来，多少庸人自以为政治天才，一番报复到头来不是落得身败名裂就是脑袋搬家。古有项羽，今有袁世凯还有那些1989年6月的亡魂。可怜，可叹。随着人类初期社会的萌生。政治也随之悄然开幕。我认为，政治对人类来说是统治和侵略的武器，征服统治和维护自己利益是人与生俱来的本性。不管原始社会也好，现代社会也罢，任何一本历史书里面都写的清清楚楚。作为庸人，还是不但政治的好。但是有一个很大的“但是“，不谈政治的人也是可怜的，他们永远将会被少数成功的谈政治的人所控制。那些有着金手腕的人们。掌握着一切，包括亿万人的生活，未来，甚至他们的生命。可悲到一个不行。有人预计，如果朝鲜韩国大动干戈的话，在第一天的战事中，将有20万人死于非命。所以作为一个人来说，并不比一只日夜劳作的蚂蚁轻松的多。所以，宁愿作一个关心政治但不谈政治的庸人，因为我知道谈，与不谈都是徒劳的，就是谈了，百年之后又有何用。为何不庸人自娱，视政治为笑话，增几分洒脱，逍遥此生。

蜗牛骑士简介 -- 2006年11月29日

蜗牛骑士，是我为我blog取的名字。要说它是blog名字，倒不如说我想让它代表一种精神。一种不轻易屈服的精神。小小的一只蜗牛，却有着勇敢的骑士精神。我说它是一件了不起的事情。虽然它爬得很慢，很慢，慢的不能再慢。让人忍受不了的速度。然而，再留下了一条漫长的轨迹的同时，它一直在勇敢地前进着。即使遇到再大的挫折。也不会回头。人生何尝不是这样，长长的一辈子，会遇到数不清的磨难的失败。处于逆境之时，难免觉得有些无助，所以一些人去追求宗教信仰，为之精神上的寄托。不敢对各大信仰做任何评论。对我来说，与其信仰任何宗教，为何不赋予那小小的蜗牛以骑士精神呢？并且以之作为榜样和激励。蜗牛有两只敏感的触角，触角上有两只永远好奇的眼睛，总是东张西望着。和蜗牛的生命比起来，人的生命很漫长。和宇宙的生命比起来，人的生命只是瞬息之间一飘即逝。有时走得太快了，我们都需要放慢脚步。只要慢慢地去欣赏，静静地去聆听。生活真地会给你好多惊喜。有多少人，能听见深夜飞雪落在枯叶上的沙沙声。有多少人，能看见黄昏时排成人字飞越晚霞的大雁。又有多少人，能留意雨后野花小草混着泥土气息的微香。不要抱怨，生活给你得太少，只是你没有慢下脚步，像我们好奇的蜗牛骑士一样来观赏途中的风景。

fate -- 2006-11-28 3:42:07 PM

Recently if you are living in Richmond. There was notorious hit-and-run driver who hit a 36 year old japanese woman who just got married 2 years ago. The woman was sent to hospital and later prounded dead. It happened on and rainy morning around 7 am at the pedestrian cross just in front of the 98 b-line station near Richmond City hall. The driver went away leaving the woman dying in rain. In Richmond Review this woman's picture shows a beautiful smile. I felt sad and sorry for her and her family. Unable to find any reason, I think of fate. I don't believe in God even though I desperately hope that there is one out there. I am agnostic. God wasn't there when the car came at her. For me, with the inablility to believe in God and being so helpless in search for an answer. I couldn't help but to started to believe in fate. What is fate? This terrible ill-defined concept was just a tool. It is a tool to relieve anxiety for people like me seeking an answer and a tool for people who are under great emotional suffer to lessen their pain. My friend, no matter how big is your misfortune, lay the blame to fate and let it carry your grief and sorrow.

穷而不匮 -- 2006年11月22日

近来在家闲来无事，以读书消磨时光。那日遇到一句说话：“富而不淫，穷而不匮者鲜矣 ” 看完之后，感触颇深。淫；非诸位所惊之感叹广义之淫。在古时候，淫为过分不当之意。而匮字为乏之意。所匮乏之源也。这句话就是说，有钱的人，不做不过分不适当之事的人很少。穷困的人，不为自己感到不幸，反而很满足的人很少。其实个人的感受又怎会决定于他人。一个人的喜怒哀乐，怎会不由自己颗心来决定。有钱而不快者多矣，人之快娱若决于银行存款，岂不悲哉？吾于穷而不匮者所敬矣，于富而不淫者所佩矣。可怜多少人屈于时事，追富淫弃贫匮，叹哉！

:b -- 2006-10-18 8:57:50 PM

Silky rain thou wilt gentally stir,
thy heart doth know not weep how
I suppose to stick thy hands out shaking
blur thy convincing eyes hold no teers to recall,
bloody skull, wilt thou learn to sing and speak?
or am I hallucinating in this hypocritical world
yet cynical smiles easily penetrate solemn masks.
greener than money, on the cross, mummified with a smile!

雨感-微小说 2006-07-13 7:58:11 AM

就这样静静的坐着，她看着窗外的世界。没有表情，寝室里空荡荡的。今天雅馨没去上课，没有为什么。与其听老师无聊的经济管理学，不如就这样一个人看着外面的雨。这雨打昨天就下起来了，今天还没有停的意思。外面的路上积满了大大小小的水坑。今年情人节给自己买的茉莉花茶喝了一个学期了还剩下一半。于是心血来潮地插上热水器。一会的功夫，白白的热气飞到窗户上形成了一层模糊的水雾。雅馨给自己沏了杯茶，顺手用手在窗户上写下他的名字。 “雨飞“ 一个很有诗意的名字，可是现在，在她心里这名字只剩下字面上的含义了。现在他真地向像雨一样，飞到很远的地方了。不要拒绝要来的人，不要挽留要走的人。这一向是雅馨的欣赏的作风，可是这次真的难免有些留恋以前和他在一起的日子。算了，还是不去想了。

雨落下时,是珠还是线? --2006-07-04 5:48:25 AM

有个瞎子, 从来没有看见过东西. 不知道雨下落时像珠还是像线.
有人告诉他雨下落时像珠子,有人告诉他雨下落时像线.
瞎子也不知道哪个是对的. 不管雨是水珠还是水线, 雨都是美的.
像珠的雨从屋檐落下,被风吹在玻璃窗上,定在那里或慢慢流下.静静地那样子.
像线的雨,从天上落下的. 像淋浴似的洗刷掉空气中的灰尘.它们落在地上,树叶上,雨达上,发出的声音好听的像打击乐.
每一滴雨好像都有自己的目的地, 好像被事先安排好的一样. 它们要做的只是随着重力加速的不
断的加速...下落... 最终粉身碎骨.
说到这不免有些感伤。
如果你是一滴雨滴会有怎样的心情呢?
如果时间突然停止,雨滴们会有怎样的表情呢?
我能想象到他们笑着的表情,因为大家不久就会又重新在一起了. 雨滴原来是水珠,在天上分开后大家都很寂寞很伤心.它们想重新在一起，选择从天上勇敢地落下. ............................ ............................
不久天晴了,地上留下一片片的水潭.....

雨--心情的遥控器 -- 2006-07-02 10:36:56 AM

雨，有多种。。。
她能在不同时间，不同地点，不同季节制造出不同的气氛。
雨，像似多愁善感的一个人。给人带来不同滋味的悲伤和欢喜。
有时细小连绵阴郁，有时急剧突如其来，有时闪着亮光伴着阳光落下轻盈而欢快。
为什么总是在雨中，人们不期而遇。为什么又总是在雨中，人们洒泪阔别。
人间多少离合之情，在雨中溢于言表。
阴阴的雨天天像在哭泣。是在为谁感动？为谁伤心？雨，难免会给人些压抑感。
但世间万事无一绝对。雨也会给人带来非凡的体验。
雨中的车站旁，一把伞之下，两人抱在一起用自己的体温温暖着对方。静静地站在那里仿佛
时间为他们也都停滞了。
人的心如一面镜子，在消沉之时心也会随之伤感。这时，就算遇上太阳雨也会觉得她的到来
不是时候。在心情平和的时候，即使整天下着稀稀拉拉的阴雨也会觉得很惬意。
雨，可以改变人的心情。同样雨也可让人对自己的心情加深感悟。
雨，这心情的遥控器，喜欢给人深深的启发，只要你，用心去体会。。。

时空气球 2006-02-24 7:13:03 PM

天文学家对地质学家说： “我可以直接观察过去！” 地质学家对天文学家说： “可是你不知道是多远以前的过去！” 宇宙像个气球，不断的膨胀。 "气球"表面任何一点可以成为宇宙的中心。所以我宣布，从今天起，我是 the center of the universe!! When the light of stars reaches your eyes, it has been travelling for a long long time. It is the past you see. 你在向气球里面看，气球的里面是你的过去，我的过去，整个宇宙的过去。我在想，气球外面是什么呢，未来么？真想看看未来什么个样子。可惜看不到... 可能只能看到过去吧。。也许未来的人们正在看着我们呢！

米的特姆 2006-02-23 5:49:03 AM

下个礼拜米的特姆有三科，有点无奈。夏天是否放假，有点为难。美其名曰study break, 其实真的是 study hot spot. Feel like my brain has rusted. Feel like my hair is falling off. Feel like time is runnng so fast. Feel like I don't know anything ... yet... Every minute counts? wish one extra hour a day, so I can get things done. doomed...doomed... It is the destiny... worried...worried... It is useless... progress...progress... where the heck are you... inefficient...inefficient... but patient patient. everyone else is the same... hope is a dangerous thing... every single second TIDAs the time away. Use this second to make a way closer to triumph. triumph of what ? For now, it is the triumph of not failing those 米的特姆s that is most attractive to me.

Comments
_Natalie _ - 09/04/2006 11:25:10 AM
I feel much the same way. Why do we have to go insane in order to be successful in university? Happiness is a strange phenomenon that we obsess over, i wonder if it even exists.

Taylor YunFan Li - 11/04/2006 10:34:59 PM
It is the way we chose, the journey of seeking happiness. In the end, after all those sufferings, you realize that happiness exists in you. I think it has something to do with how we look at things. It's like standing in front of a mirror, the person you see with a smily :) face magnify the person's happy mood and vice versa. So don't forget to smile to yourself in the mirror everyday and say "I can deal with that crap". Think about the things you have learned in school that most people don't know. That's how I make myself feel better.

Feb 21st, 06 --secret of 커피 and 술 -- 2006-02-21 9:48:24 PM

有时候咖啡喝多了，连学习的时候都会很兴奋。有时候酒喝多了，连打游戏的时候都会觉得困。有时候咖啡和酒一起喝，感觉什么都没喝。咖啡的理性像男人。酒的感性像女人。这就是为什么男人爱喝酒，女人爱喝咖啡的缘故吧。但我喜欢爱喝酒的女人，因为醉了的女人，两倍的感性加四倍的性感。相反的，女人应该喜欢爱喝咖啡的男人吧。

Just for you -- 2005年3月27日

I would sing a song just for you, my dearest friend. Can't stop wondering, how is your life right at this moment. Time passes by silently. Have you changed? My dearest friend. No matter what happens, those days we spent will be kept in my happist memory. Come to me, my friend, when you need someone to talk to, when you feel lonely, when you need someone to hold you. I will be there, my dearest friend. I will protect you. I will lead you by the hand. I will tell you a joke. I will show you the world. Remember, my dearest friend! Don’t ever give up. show the whole world what you can do. I will cheer you up. There are always hope, hope is a good thing. I promise, you will see me again, that is our destiny. Remember, my friend, there are always sunshine. Smile! My friend, Smile! I will wipe away your tears. I will smile with you. Have I forgotten to tell you that you have beautiful smiles. Reach out your arms, I will reach out mine. Together, let’s welcome tomorrow, no matter whereever you are, I am only a tear drop away.

人生目的大辩论 -- 2004年11月14日

目的存在与我们所做的任何一件事情当中，这是我们做这件事情的最初动机。比如说，我们读大学是为了要找个好工作，我们找工作是为了将来有好收入，有好收入是为了有能力在养活自己的同时能够组建家庭。。。等等等等。。都是那些永远不变的公式。有谁想过人生的目的是什么。这是个很难很难回答的问题。一旦一个人明白自己一生要作什么他就会有了方向。但是往往有些时候，由于对自己不能正确理解。后来发现以前确定的方向不是自己想要的于是有了新的目的。是啊，有谁能百分百的拍着自己胸脯子说自己10年后的想法不会变？事物每时每刻都在变，城市在不断的发展，环境在不断的恶化，政党在不断的轮换，国际关系在不断的变化，就连碳14也在继续它不紧不慢的衰变。何况每分每秒都在运转的人的想法。人生的目的到底是什么？不要告诉我人生的目的就是在不断的寻找着人生的目的，这是多么遗憾的答案啊。有些人认为，不管人活的目的是什么，最重要的就是坚持到底，坚持，坚持再坚持，怎么讲呢？好比人生是张地图，刚开始有通向好多密密麻麻通向四面八方的小路。每条路代表自己选择的“目的”并通向不同的目的地。当然，每条路都有沿途不同的风景。假如一直沿着一条路走，这条路会越来越宽越来两边的风景越好并且达到目的地。如果刚开始沿着一条路走着走着，觉得无聊至极于是索性换一条路走。走着走着再换，这样下去到最后不仅没有达到目的地而且自己没有看到任何一条路在变宽变美，最后还是身陷于密密麻麻小路的地图中和刚开始没有任何区别于是开始大发感慨：“为什么不沿着一条路走”可是为时以晚自己的人生将过。所以人生的路是自己走的，以后的风景是自己选择的。可是为什么，为什么要达到目的地呢？没有达到目的地的人反问。到达目的地的人无言。是啊，为什么啊？为什么自己要千辛万苦的沿一条路走啊，为的就是看着着条路变宽变美么？意义何在啊，自己的一生也即将结束而且miss掉了其他路上不同的风情。就好像爱因斯坦一样把自己的一生用来思考文明于世。可是他也有遗憾啊，虽然写出了相对论和得到其他一些成就，但是到死也没能够找到那个他日想夜想的统一引力，电磁和能量的公式。可见他的目的地是不完美的，可以说是目的地就是所谓的终点。没有人的目的地是完美的因为没有人可以永远活下去，但为什么为了这个不完美的目的地忽略其它路上所带来不同风味的美呢？到了所谓“目的地”的人和没有到所谓”目的地“的人争论不休。我觉得其实就是一个选择，没有对错，坚持了又如何，得到的目的地是有缺陷的所谓的不完美的。就好比两个人用一生的时间挖井，一个人挖的又深又窄，另一个挖的又宽又浅。假设两个人活一样长，挖井的速度一样。那么得出的结论就是他们到死谁也没比谁多挖多少土。但也可能由于地质结构不一样，其中一个下面有个大洞不用费力去挖就好比中了4 6 9彩票。当然这是个别的极少数的不在讨论范围统计之内。总的来说，两个人到死所挖的井容积一样就对了。前面的争论该结束了，其实人生就是这样，不会太完美，听起来有些悲观可是却是事实。因为没有人能无限活下去。就好比秦始皇到处求长生不老的仙丹可是最后可能就死在了那些可能含铅的 “仙丹”上面。人生的目的到底是什么，人为什么活着，人为什么来到这个世界上。问这些问题的人好像有毛病。可是为什么你觉得这些人有毛病？你能说出理由么。想必可能不是那么简单吧。最简单的回答我想到了“人活在这个世界上不为什么，因为不管为什么，时间还是一天一天的过，饭还是一口一口的吃。钱还是一块一块的挣一块一块的花。不管活的多辉煌多灿烂到时候还得跟这个世界说拜拜不是么，所以人活着怎样活法自己决定怎么开心怎么活，没人管的着，没有活着为什么或为什么活着。因为没有为什么”。。。。。。。。。。。。。。“

安静的心 -- 2004年11月11日

电脑重装了，所有的东西都没有了。把前几天刚认识的一个好朋友的E-mail也弄丢了。我希望她会给我回封邮件。可是她没有，不知什么原因。或许她的电脑也遭遇同样的经历。朋友也许就是这样吧。寂寞的时候可以互相发发信。一旦生活变的充实就会忘记以前寂寞时陪自己的人吧。理所应当的事情。当然了。任何事情都有主有次，朋友也不例外。从一到十，每人都对自己的朋友加以评判。十应该是最好的朋友了吧。世界是如此之复杂。同样一个人对你在时间的变迁中可以从一变成十，也可以从十变成一。一切事物都在每时每刻发生微妙的变化。时间长了，即使再细小的变化也会在时间的催促下察觉的到。这些变化也许是你所希望的，像你的阅历会随着年龄的增长而丰富。同时也是你不希望的，比如随着年龄的增长一个人会不停地在衰老，自从出生的那天起。我认为一切事物有好的一面也有坏的一面。也许要做的就是要以一颗平静的心来面对这不平静的世界。外面的世界很喧嚣，但我不觉得吵，因为我有颗安静的心。

最后一片花瓣 -- 2004年11月11日

最后一片花瓣落了下来，轻轻地悄然无声，无人知晓。路灯不明不暗地照着马路仿佛也对那最后的花瓣不感兴趣。花瓣叹息着，想着过去，多少人观赏自己赞不绝口。如今却要任凭秋风的摆布。花瓣很伤心，可是它没有哭。因为它早知道自己的命运会是这样。将和无数平庸的树叶一起消失在泥土中。花瓣无奈的等待，它觉的时间如此的漫长。突然，它觉得自己飞了起来，在强大的压力下觉得好象自己已经离开了自己的身体。这感觉很舒服。自己好像摆脱了束缚。原来，一个小女孩拾起了它，把它的颜色永远地留在自己日记本的第一页上。花瓣重新高兴了起来。它的美丽变成了永恒。

流泪的玻璃悲伤的我 -- 2004年10月28日

下雨了，也许此时的天气才配得上此时的心情，灰色的。天快黑了，雨点被风吹到玻璃窗上划出一道道的水线，渐渐的模糊了。玻璃窗哭泣着，天彻底黑了,玻璃窗的泪痕看不清了,只听见哒哒哒雨点落下的声音。玻璃窗中看到自己的影子，陷入了沉思。往事忽隐忽现像正在看着没有剪接好的黑白电影，突然一片漆黑。也许自己喜欢一个人在黑暗里静静的听外面的声音。也许自己喜欢一个人躺在床上闭着眼睛试图拼接好黑白的过去直到睡着。也许只有在梦中才可以找到彩色的世界。

人生转折点 -- 2004年10月26日

有没有想过有一天，在你的一生中。你发现你已经不是原来的你了,你的心情你的一切都和那一天以前的都不一样了。以前的你很开心, 现在的你很失落, 很伤感，不知道会不会有一天会快乐起来，回到从前。有些事情是无法挽回的，因为它以成事实，不管你怎么后悔，怎么惋惜，怎么遗憾都无济于事。因为它以成事实，不管它另你多么心痛，多么痛苦。你会发现你自己会试着逃避它，希望忘记一切。但是你做不到，你怎么能做到。那记忆中还有你所留恋的东西，多么美好啊，如果这一切不曾发生。你还是原来的你，不曾改变过。但是时间是单方向的坐标轴，不可能在前面加上负号。你已经改变了，彻彻底底的改变了。就像蛋白质在pH小于7的溶液中酸酸地改变了，回不到从前。眼泪，静静地流，没有人知道，黑暗中，萎缩的身影，渐渐的被遗忘。孤单地在那一天之后悔恨着，试图改变却无能为力。因为你已过人生坐标轴上转折的一点!