Places: Darkness & Light / El Cielo / Patt's Place / What I shoudn't have / Where Am I? / '04 entries: Jan / Feb / Mar / Apr / May / Jun / Jul / Aug / Sep / Oct / Nov / Dec / '05 entries: Jan / Feb / Mar / Apr / May / Jun / Jul / Aug / Sep / Oct / Nov + / ChatBox / Oct 31st '04 (03:10p.m.) : So early I love winter in Canada, because I get to sleep an extra hour. I had a funny dream too. I was with a couple of friends walking through an apartment attempting to find the exit. One of them had their IPod with him, and suddenly I heard a Korean song and I turned to him and said "hey I love that song!" Of course in reality that would be impossible because among my friends only I like asian music. Anyway, point of the story is, I tend to play music on my computer at night when I go to sleep, and that Korean song I heard in my dream was on the playlist. Maybe while I was dreaming I heard the song and so it was integrated into my thoughts. Interesting eh? - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 31st '04 (03:57a.m.) : Halloween, wooooh...! I believe it would've been more suitable, however unnecessary and immoral, as an April Fool's joke, apparently someone or some people thought it would be a great idea to start Halloween off by putting a dead mouse between the door at the south-east entrance of my dorm. My friends and I have mixed opinions of whether it was real or not. I thought it was a highly authetic replication bought at a joke store; and I hope it was, otherwise whoever was responsible is an asinine fucked up psycho. Life is good in Toronto! On other less bloody Halloween festivity, a couple of friends and I went to the pumpkin carving contest at the cafeteria of Loretto, one of the girls residence. Like most inter-residence events, there were only a handful of male residents who attended, and most girls were only there to officiate. We found out however, in order to eat at their cafeteria we only need to leave our student card at the front desk and pick it up when we leave, and not the long complicated way we were told earlier the year. Perhaps one of these days I will go check it out; of course, it's only to see how terrible their food is, since all the girls prefer our crappy food over their own. Back to pumpkin carving story: we didn't win anything; the winner was a lone freshman who apparently carved a pumpkin with a collection of Halloween themes. It's cool, I thought we could've won something but whatever; if there were better prizes I would've cared more. The prizes were furry animal masks, which could be integrated as part of one's Halloween costume I presume. Anyway, while we waited for the judges, we washed our hands clean of pumpkin stuff at the secluded washroom downstairs, where I managed to miss the big block letters that say "Alarm will Sound If Door is Open" and pull open the emergency exit. Naturally, the alarm was triggered. We pretended nothing happened; and nothing happened, my friend was expecting a big search for the culprit or something. Kind of odd coming from him. In the end we just took our pumpkin with us and it's now sitting at the common room slowly rotting away; someone should throw it out soon. On other news, an issue has been resolved, and it's good. It was awkard at first, because a friend, who sometimes says the wrong things at the wrong time, apparently made a comment while I was away, which sort of annoyed me. I suppose it's a good way to break the ice or to steer at the right direction, but the plan was to slowly build up the backstory and not just lay everything on the table so abruptly. Oh well, it's over and done with, it's okay now. So many ironies; so funny is life. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 28th '04 (02:00a.m.) : Happy Birthday Trish! Isn't it great to be 20? :) - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 25th '04 (01:05a.m.) : Don't worry, be happy! Over dinner the other day, a friend and I were having a discussion on depression among the general population. It all started with us talking about our mutual friends and the problems, issues, crisis they are facing currently, and how most of them are depressed one way or the other: school, future, life, and such, and how my biggest worry at that moment was whether to purchase something or save that money for eating-out later; in other words, my worries are mostly trivial. It shouldn't suggest, however, that I myself am not worried about those issues. Yes, I worry about life and what I will do after I graduate from university; I told him it's probably how I am able to isolate each problem and think about them individually instead of linking everything together to the point where I would be completely overwhelmed by sadness. People tend to over-analyze and think too deep into simple things; chill out, relax, the solution is out there. My friend said I wouldn't understand others' situations until I face the same problems myself. True. He also said I have things easy compared to others. True, but that's all relative; clearly I don't have it as easy as, say, Bill Gates' son. Let me assure you though, I know I am lucky, and I am truly grateful for the way my life runs, but anyway, extreme case you say? Point is, don't compare ourselves with people better than us! How about compare our situations with the blind man living on the street around the corner? The family from two blocks down living with bare minimum? The children starving in Africa? I am not saying to look down on people who have less, but the fact we are all more fortunate than we tend to think or believe. Anyway, before I must throw myself to sleep, please be more happy about life, it's easier than you think. And, help is out there, if you need it. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 21th '04 (03:00a.m.) : Happy Birthday Richard! Go get your driver's licence, NOW! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 20th '04 (04:34p.m.) : Life feels good, even if it'll only last two weeks With my "Italian Altarpieces" essay and "Roman Historical Art" midterm out of the way, at last, I can breathe again! But it's all cool, no worries for essays or tests until at least awhile later. Well except there is a midterm for mythology next tuesday, but I don't suppose it will pose any real threat. Speaking of midterm, the one I had today (the Roman Historical Art) was interesting. We were given 1 question, which was to look at the two slides the professor put up and examine the appropriateness and significance of why we should compare the two, to answer in ten minutes. That was probably the shortest midterm I'll ever take in life. I don't think I gave full details in my answer, but I'm certain I had the essences down, so, w00t! And the Yankees are out, w00t! By the way, I don't really care about baseball; I watched the game today solely because I accidentally locked myself out and therefore was forced to relocate to the common room until my don returned around midnight to let me in. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 13th '04 (00:18a.m.) : My brain feels like exploding into little cubes Last few days have been a blur, I haven't been focusing on anything. Actually that has been the case since the dawn of time, so, why am I stressing the fact again? Who knows. Funny how things seem so important and worrisome to some people may appear inconsequential to others, like how some of us are completely addicted to Trailer Park Boys, and to me that's a "yeah.. sure.. whatever.." type of thing. I guess it's the same as how I listen to J-Pop and some of you are saying "what the fuck is that!" Anyway, I assure you I didn't realize this just yesterday, but I just felt like stating the mere fact that there are differences in our tastes, worries, lives in general and so on, for some odd reason that I don't think exists. Alright I'm definitely losing it; I'm tired, I really need to sleep. Hopefully I can wake up early tomorrow before class and do some readings and research for my Italian altarpieces essay. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 4th '04 (07:08a.m.) : The worst nightmare Freak! I was woken up by these two women, who were probably walking their dogs at this time of hour, talking about someone's age or whatsoever outside (my windows are opened) Kind of creepy. I couldn't tell immediately whether it was day or night, then suddenly I thought I had slept the entire day and missed Monday's five three o! At that point I went frantic; jumped off the bed, turned on the computer, dialed some number, looked outside the window, and finally reassured myself it was only seven in the morning and everything was fine. Phew! I feel better. I imagine the fact that the sun is setting earlier now with winter quickly approaching around the corner was the cause for my confusion. Or maybe I just wasn't thinking right. Anyway. To add to my short-lived day of surprise, I received an email from my high school drama teacher, after I had emailed her twice, two years ago! It's strange, because I'm not sure whether or not I should write back. I now have the feeling that she recognized me while we flew in the same plane last May. Here's what happened. It was year end and I was going home. At the airport, just as I sat down to wait for boarding, I looked around and saw someone talking on one of the public phones, and immediately I realized it was my drama teacher. I thought about whether or not I should greet her, in the end however I chose not to and pretended nothing happened. But of course, life has its funny ways. After boarded and seated at the very end of the plane, my teacher came onboard, and her seat was just one in front of me! And to add to this madness she saw me too, but didn't say anything either. At this point you are probably thinking, "well, why didn't you say something?" Well, first, when you emailed someone and didn't get a reply, twice, you would naturally assume that the person does not want to have any connection with you anymore. And don't think the emails were filtered to junk mail or something, because I'm positive that my address is on her safe list. Second, once an old students of hers saw her in a store and greeted her, but apparently she didn't remember him until given much details, which I found hard to believe. Anyway, regardless of whether I did the right or wrong thing doesn't matter anymore, it's in the past. I probably will write her back, and just pretend what happened on the plane last May was merely an hallucination of mine. Or perhaps, I can write to her of everything I wrote here, that'd make it interesting eh? To see how she would respond: "Oh actually I recognized you too, but I didn't think you remember me so I didn't say anything." or "What? You were on the plane? I don't remember seeing you! How odd!?" I think she'll probably say the latter. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 4th '04 (12:05a.m.) : I'm liking this Okay, I think I've added most of the links back, and the Chatter Box will now be a separate window; I don't think that should cause too much trouble for anyone right? Anyway, I like this new layout, the codes are much simpler than my old ones, easier to make changes and all. Great! And I sort of realized the past two times when I give the blog a new look, on both occasions it has been inspired by Mika's new single. Last time it was "Hi no tori" (Firebird); and this time it's "LEGEND". What can I say? She's the best, well, one of the bests. And Utada's English album "EXODUS" will be released here in three days!! Finally something new for my discman! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Oct 3rd '04 (06:33a.m.) : Yet another layout So instead of coming up with another layout I really should get some sleep eh. It's almost seven in the morning yet I'm still awake, you probably wondering if there is something wrong with me. I don't know, just falling into the terrible habit of sleeping early again, I imagine, and of course by early I mean early in the morning. It happens when you are living away from home and you have the freedom to choose when you want to sleep, or even whether you want to sleep or not. Anyway, if you haven't noticed already, I've reverted to writing in proper English, which I think some of you will rejoice to this change. It just so happened that I was writing emails with capital letters, so I decided to continue that trend and write my blog with capital letters. Yeah yeah whatever. Anyway, onto some gaming news; while I knew Nintendo and Sony were planning on releasing new handhelds, the Nintendo DS and PSP, I didn't know they are going to hit the market so soon. Apparently the DS will hit stores on November 21st; how convenient for Nintendo to release it just before the holiday season huh? It's going to be priced the same as Sony's new slim version of the Playstation 2. Humm, how interesting. Okay, I think I have reached my limits, need to sleep badly! I will probably add the old links and all tomorrow, or some other time when I update again. And by the way, I didn't come up with this new layout, and if the web-master happens to stumble upon this little space and doesn't want me using it, feel free to send me an email. Address at the bottom. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - October's featured artist: Nakashima Mika. Site updated and maintained by Me.